Showing posts with label Charlotte's Web. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Charlotte's Web. Show all posts

28 June 2011

Hope.

dedicated to my dear friend J.S.

I am tired.

In the last six years, I graduated college, returned for a teaching certificate, endured my first year of teaching (complicated by no student teaching, an absent administration, and two students trying to get me fired), bought a house, married, fought my way out of sexual dysfunction with the help of myriad professionals, transferred jobs, miscarried more than once, moved away from my hometown, dealt with depression, dealt with serious relationship difficulties, and graduated with a master’s degree that felt like a mini-doctorate. In the space of ten days at the end of May this year, I moved back to my hometown, crashed my car, and landed in the hospital.

It’s been a long six years.

Do I bring this up to drum up sympathy? No. I bring it up because in the midst of all of this, I am constantly reminded of my Jesus. The fact is that everyone goes through this. Everyone experiences sorrow, loss, conflict, and pain. But regardless of who appears and disappears from my life, who strengthens me and who ignores me, Jesus is my hope. Because I know how fervently and unconditionally He loves me, I am able to revel in the cool water of His peace. As my friend J.S. reminded me today, He promises joy on the other side of the pain, joys upon joys. And He has already given me the joys of a loving, supportive family; the most loyal, dependable friends on the planet; and a job that utilizes my interests and allows me to work alongside amazing coworkers. These are not coincidences: they are gifts from a loving Parent who has my best interests at heart. Whatever I deal with, He is my strength and my song (Exodus 15:2). Whenever darkness threatens me, He roars, “This far you may come and no farther” (Job 38:11). He prays for me (Isaiah 62:1), delights in me (Isaiah 62:4), and rejoices over me (Isaiah 62:5). That is the God I love.

And sometimes my Lord speaks in an unexpected voice. Like a spider’s. I watched Charlotte’s Web last night because that’s what I do when I’m feeling down. (Or when I'm really down, I read it.) Early on, Wilbur’s destiny is uncertain: as a spring pig, he is likely to be cured ham by Christmas. One of the animals references this fact, which nearly gives Wilbur a heart attack. “Charlotte, should I be worried?” he asks his best friend. She chuckles a bit. “Of course not. What good would that do?” Tears sprang to my eyes as I looked upward. God might as well have been in my room, winking at me, smiling, and saying, “That goes for you too, my love.” And if you ask my heart, he was.

13 August 2010

Magic.

Oz. Narnia. Wonderland. Never-Never Land. Consider our myths and fairytales, and you’ll see immediately that we humans crave magic. A deep, long-lost part of us must believe in it: decade after decade we teach these stories to our children. At a young age, we learn that if you shove aside the coats in your armoire, you will walk straight into a snowy kingdom where all your courage will be needed to fight the White Queen. Or that if a tornado strikes your house, you will land on a yellow brick road that takes you to the Wizard. Or that if you fall through a hole after being hurried there by a rabbit, you will find yourself in the midst of an epic battle between kindness and jealousy. Courage and magic intertwine at the core of our favorite childhood stories. My own favorite story, Charlotte’s Web, relies on the reader’s willing suspension of disbelief in farm animals’ ability to converse.

How does it happen that gradually such belief fades? Last month my three-year-old niece told me about a pink-and-blue tent she received for her birthday. When I asked her favorite thing about it, she replied, “Probably the lift-up door because I can lift it up and see what’s going on in there so I know if I want to play in it or go somewhere else with Mommy.” While I’m sure my niece knows that whatever might be “going on in there” is strictly her imagination, I’m betting she’d be an easy sell on all things magical. After all, to the young brain, both Santa Claus and rainbows are magical. How did exactly the toys you wanted appear under the tree sometime during the night on Christmas Eve? Somehow Santa must’ve done it. How does light shooting through suspended water droplets cause a bursting forth of colors in the same order every single time? Somehow God must’ve done it.


When it comes to faith, instead of harboring a childlike willingness to believe in magic, we enter into these ridiculous adult arguments about old earth versus new earth, or literal versus figurative. Those conversations might be enjoyable or even faith-building to some, but when they split friendships and churches—as they often do—something is wrong. Consider the words of Jesus in the Book of Mark: Let the children come to me. Don’t stop them! For the Kingdom of God belongs to those who are like these children. I tell you the truth, anyone who doesn’t receive the Kingdom of God like a child will never enter it (Mark 10:14b-15, NLT). Can you imagine children arguing whether Jesus turned water into wine or grape juice? Whether the Flood actually killed everything except that which was literally on the ark? Kids eat up Bible stories: they’re pure magic. You hear a lot more cries of “Cool!” than snorts of “This is obviously not meant to be taken literally” when you teach children’s Sunday school. And clearly, this is what Jesus is after—unbridled enthusiasm and belief in all things magically God. Luckily for most of us, Jesus doesn’t say, “Anyone who doesn’t receive the Kingdom of God like a theologian will never enter it.”

Am I taking issue with the discipline of theology? Certainly not. Am I suggesting that all sophisticated and/or inquiry-driven considerations of God should be quashed? Not at all. But I do wonder why we can’t go back to our child selves and be willing to accept a little more magic at face value. A fourteen-year-old Middle Eastern girl who’d never had sex in gave birth to God’s child? Let’s just go with it. As we’ve learned from the oft-quoted passage, Faith is the confidence that what we hope for will actually happen; it gives us assurance about things we cannot see (Hebrews 11:1, NLT). What is that if not a definition of believing in magic? So what if we can’t see God? Let’s just believe he’s there. We’ve never seen the wind or Neptune either, and we believe they’re out there. Maybe it’s time to peek back in that armoire with the children and see what they teach us about God.